THE GIFT

Today I realized that I have the “Gift” I have been seeking all my life.  Since I was a child, I have had a dream to become a published and self-supporting writer.  I also believe that becoming a writer is one of the reasons I came into this life.  I have something I must say and there are people I must say it to that I will never personally know or meet.  The only way I can do that is to write and  publish my work. 

I believe in reincarnation for some very practical reasons.  I believe we all come into this life on Earth to learn lessons we chose and to educate our immortal spirits.  I believe, when we die there is something we take with us.  That something is the lessons we have learned and the wisdom we have accumulated during that life.  I believe we have loving relationships we carry from one life to another.  There is a person in my life today that I am sure I have known and love in numerous life times before. 

 About twenty years ago, I found out that I am in a life cycle of the number nine.  This means I am here to finish projects and lesson started in other lifetimes.  My major overall goal in this lifetime is to clean my house and get ready to move.  An interesting metaphor considering that most of this life is about travel and moving. 

The past twenty years have been a very active time in this life.  In July, it will be twenty years since Don died.  I think his death was probably one of two or three major mile markers in my life.  My life changed in a few short months.  The way I live, loved and even looked at the world would forever be different.  Suddenly, I had a beautiful gift of freedom and everything I needed to use it. This gift did not come without a very high price though; today I still pay the cost of my choices.

 The first thing I did was to buy plane tickets to Ireland.  It would be an accurate assessment to say the last twenty years of my life have been a great adventure.  Most people only dream of doing what I have done.  I lived in foreign countries twice and am now making plans to do it a third time.  Each foreign adventure has given me a great gift.  Two years in Ireland gave me my roots and spiritual growth I stand on today.  Two years in England gave my present husband and the opportunity to grow and love in a way I did not know existed. 

Raymond and I met because he was writing his first book and he needed some help.  For twenty months we became friends, inspired and encouraged each other to develop their writing skills.  In the ten years of our marriage, that has become one of the foundation blocks of our relationship.  I realize today that I am a very lucky and blessed person to have a partner who shares my greatest life passion.  We encourage each other equally and push each other to achieve our greatest goal of becoming published writers. 

Now we are making plans to embark on the next great adventure.  We will be moving to New Zealand for a two-year trip in October of 2013.  When I met Raymond, I was making plans to go to New Zealand for two years.  I just was detoured for a few years.  It seems now that not all the pieces were in place yet for that to happen.  Now it appears that the stars are coming into alignment and that is on our horizon.   

This past year has been very difficult for me and now I think I understand why.  Earlier this year I was nearly lured away from my dream by an allusion of power and money.  I almost walked back into a profession that I left nearly fifteen years ago.  Had I done that, would have paid a huge price for what I thought I wanted.  The allure was hypnotic and I became almost obsessed in my desire to have this job.  Thankfully, my fates again stepped in and prevented me from getting this job.  Finding out I would not get the job was a hugged ego blow to me and it took three months for me to realize that this was not a personal failure in my life—it was spiritual guidance and a realignment of my true-life direction. 

I now know my fate, what I really wanted all along, is right in front of me.  All the pieces are falling into place right now to set me on the path to write professionally.  I will begin writing new outlines and plots for, THE HARP, THE PEN AND THE SWORD, in January.  This must be finished and complete before we leave for New Zealand because I will write the book(s) while we are there.